Pros and Cons

I hate making decisions that mold me. I hate making them because I know that my decisions have the potential to paint me as an irresponsible human being, a failure, or a flake who can't make up his mind. I'm finding right now to be one of those decisions that could potentially be amazing, or could be me being a wuss and trying to do what's easy.

The problem is that I have no idea if it's right or wrong.

I have a hard time hearing God. It could be because I'm being too loud, or it could be because I'm too far away, but when it comes down to making decisions I have a seriously hard time hearing the voice tell me one way or the other. I've always thought that God could work through the pros and cons of the situation, on the other hand, I've thought that pros and cons are just ways to justify what I'm doing is right.

Does God want me to be in a situation where the cons outweigh the pros?

Right now I'm a commuter student with a major responsibility of being the worship leader for a campus ministry. It's an hour commute and I'm only on campus two days a week. How can I possibly be the caliber leader that I need to be but be almost 100 miles away from everyone? I can't make relationships that last over two days a week. I could if I wasn't in class or rehearsal.

So the decision I have to make is do I take out a student loan and move back closer to school for my last year or maybe even beyond that. I really don't know what to do. I want to move. I want to be closer to my friends. I want to live the typical college life for at least another year. I'll have plenty of time to be the adult person when I graduate.

This is hard.