Brooms and What Not

I haven't made my presence known in the blogging world in awhile. A.k.a. I've been too busy to write, ok, maybe I've been too lazy to write. That's probably more like it. Anyway, I've been thinking a lot lately about relationships. Some of it has been why I'm not in one and, other than God obviously feels like it isn't the right time, if there's anything I'm doing wrong. So far I feel like I'm trying to find a balance between being too upfront and not upfront enough.

This is probably something I will never get the hang of. I'm quite convinced that this is a case by case thing and that I will win some and lose some my entire life.

The ability to succeed in all our relationships all the time is something that will never happen. This is what I'm dealing with. Some things just don't work out the way we want them to. The ability to take something that is wrong, accept that it is not the way it's supposed to be, and attempt to change that, is the real gift. This is what I'm trying to perfect.

For instance, right now, I'm throwing around the idea of girls having leagues in my head. You know, the whole "she's out of your league" thing. Now, should there be a league? I've heard it said that you can sweep any girl off her feet with the right broom.

There's someone who I kind of feel a connection with, but most of the time I'm hesitant because:

1. She's beautiful
2. She's too good for me
3. I'm a wuss

There's always questions: Do I be more upfront? Do I let it be? (God please whisper words of wisdom)

I'm always hesitant to go with my emotions because, to be honest, they haven't got me anywhere in the past. On the other hand, I don't want to not do anything because I will never know what could be unless I do something about it. I'm going to try being patient for God's guidance and we'll see where that goes. I'm pretty sure He won't let me down.