Stretched

If I'm completely honest with myself, and sometimes it hurts like you know what, I'm completely over stretching myself right now. I'm the kind of person who needs to always be doing something. I need to be a part of something. If I'm at school, it's not enough to just go to class and go home, I choose to be a part of campus ministries. If I'm at church, it's not enough to just go to church, I have to be involved. If I'm at home, it's not enough to just sit at home, I have to go out. You get the idea. 

I just realized how many I's are in this post.

I'm asking the constant question of  "Am I truly serving others or serving others to please myself?"

Am I serving to be served? To be happy? To ultimately make myself feel better?

I want to serve. Without expectations. But I have a hard time saying no.

Here's a list of everything in my life that I'm a part of:

1. Church: worship leading, student leader

2. Home life: The Gathering (founder and band leader) Red Robin (waiting tables)

3. School: Classes, homework, Wesley Foundation Worship Team

An average week once school starts:

Sunday: Set up at 6:30am, lead worship, home for a few hours, either student ministry at 7 or wait tables that night

Monday: Commute to Kennesaw from Ringgold, Class from 12:30-4:45, Wesley band practice at 6, commute home to Ringgold

Tuesday: Work on Gathering stuff, Wait tables

Wednesday: Commute to Kennesaw from Ringgold, Class from 12:30-6:15, Wesley at 7, Commute home to Ringgold

Thursday: Work on Gathering stuff, wait tables, The Springs band rehearsal at 7

Friday: Work on Gathering stuff, wait tables

Saturday: Wait tables

This is purely for my own information, and my own venting, not to say "look here's how busy I am." I just need it in writing.

Anyway, pray that I would be able to handle all this right now, and that I would make the right decisions if there are hard ones to make.