Fighting, Tug of War, and Other Ways to Not Listen

Yesterday was the first day of classes and I thought I had everything sorted out and ready to go. For some reason, I ended up signing up for two classes that met at the same time. In the past, the system wouldn't let you sign up for two classes at the same time, it would say they had a time conflict. Not anymore. I didn't catch this mistake until the day before classes started. So the outcome is that I have to drop the class I've been trying to take for like two years now, and pick up another class that I really don't want to take in order to stay in school on a full-time basis.

Crazy.

I was driving home last night and got to thinking. The door has been shut on this class, Writing for Film and Television, many times. I asked God if I was still fighting Him. I've always fought God over control of where my future is headed. I told Him a long time ago that I would never be a missionary. I've been to India and Guatemala. I also told Him I would never be a teacher. My major is now English Education.

My thoughts are that I'm trying to turn my college education away from the subject that God wants me in. I mean, I may be over-analyzing, but when doors shut more than once, I can't help but think that God is trying to say something.

I can't win tug of war with God.