The First

Hello all,

I was actually thinking tonight, yes I was thinking, that I'm tired of feeling alone. We all deal with that at some point of our lives, and to be honest, I believe we never really feel completely un-alone, if that makes any sense. The hardest part is that I'm not alone and sometimes the people around me aren't good enough. At least, that's what it feels like. My friends and family are absolutely amazing people and would drop everything if they knew that I was in turmoil, but they're not to be with me intimately for the rest of my life. A day is coming where I'm going to be even more alone for longer periods of time. I'm ready for someone to fill the passenger seat in my car on a permanent basis. I'm ready for someone to fill the spot next to me on the couch when I'm watching a movie. I'm ready for someone to complete my ministry and chase after God with me. I'm ready for someone to care about me as much as I care about them. I'm ready for someone to come and break down this wall that I've built around my heart. I'm ready to be infatuated. 

I promised myself that this blog wouldn't be filled with woe is me passages about the "unbearable" singleness and nothing but relationship blogs. And it won't. That's why I'm getting it out now. The first one.